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People in Glass Houses
04:15
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breath after breath there's small traces of lies
lined on the back of my neck and I'm wasting the air in my lungs
words filled with false hopes lead cowards on tight ropes
the same ropes that bind us (lies/lust)
so put on this act and keep denying the fact
that you're nothing but a liar with nothing to live for
crawling on all fours begging for some more
I cant believe I fell for this or that I even fell for you
you made up all of the rules
as if they didn't apply to you
and they only applied to me
I can hear the cracks in your voice
through the cracks of vitreous walls
and you're trying so hard to come clean
but I'm sure you had your reasons
but it's hard to tell at this point
if the truth will set you free
with every breath you took you left a trail of lies
Leading everyone on that you were the victim and I was the villain
At this point I would've gladly taken the roll just to know how it feels
But these words are not your own.
I will never be free, nor do i want to be
I'm shackled in your chains so I'll never truly be alone
you will never see what you truly meant to me
you're swimming through my pain, only my body is bound to bone
breath after breath there's small traces of lies
lined on the back of my neck and I'm wasting the air in my lungs
words filled with false hopes lead cowards on tight ropes
the same ropes that bind us (lies/lust)
so put on this act and keep denying the fact
that you're nothing but a liar with nothing to live for
crawling on all fours begging for some more
I cant believe I fell for this or that I even fell for you
pull the glass from my side my dear, there's blood on your hands
pull the wool from my eyes, I'm trying to find my path
pull the glass from your lips my hear, you've spoken your last
pull the wool from your skin, and come see the damage you've done
pull the glass.
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Goodnight
04:07
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my hands are shaking, anxiety is such a lonely word
my chest, it trembles with every breath I take
we'll be safe if we stay right here x2
like children in a sandbox
they're singing us to sleep
with their hands over our mouths
making promises we can't keep
follow me through the smoke
and I'll lead us to the light
or leave me here in the dark
just kiss me goodnight
she ran from the sand as the stars sang
a constellation opens it's mouth and sang like a trumpet
the fabric of shadows has formed a window
silhouettes of a whale, bright lights casting shadows
we're just kids in a sandbox with wide eyes broadcasting fear
she's entranced in the light, as the stars sang
take her from the light, leave them in the sand
now she's gone, and we're alive
did she just disappear, or did she die?
where are we now? where is the sky?
and then I awoke from a great flash of light
it was the sun
she drew her sword and tore holes in the sky
and then covered my eyes so I could sleep at night
I am finally awake. I can see the light
she drew her sword and traced lines in her wrists
who would ever have thought she'd end her life like this?
now she's finally awake, she can finally see the light
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that morning I woke up to a pain in my chest
while her dead eyes were still filled with tears
she didn't disappear, it was the latter
while her body laid as still as a stone
and the blade was still in her hand, shaking violently
as if it wanted nothing to do with her death
I tried to wake myself as if I was still dreaming
the lights in the sky were barely blinding
the shouts from the sea were barely silent
I slept to a dying dream, I awake to a living nightmare
the air was cold and so was she
my ribs gave way so I could breath
amongst the sheets were grains of sand
mixed in with blood and blade in hand
and I recall back to my dream
where I had seen her in the light
where the stars had held me back from her
where our voices tore a hole in the sky
and then the whale took her away
to a place where I can't go
and that was when she drew her sword
and cut her wrist real deep and slow
and as she did she broke in tears
and rid herself of a broken life
and everything had become clear
as soon as skin embraced the knife
how can I ever trust you if I can't trust myself?
my head hangs heavy over you
and I'm still triyng to wake you up
I tried to bring out the best in me
but I'll never be enough
these dreams are all I ever see
and you were haunting me in mine
I take the blade out of your hand
and hold you close for one last time
now I know why she never said goodnight
why couldn't you just speak to me?
I could've saved you
I can't believe that this is how it ends
I couldn't save you
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4. |
Following Feathers
03:54
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my mother was faded to a ghost in disguise
as the sun set under the sky
my father was already gone
he left me entombed in my mothers eyes
follow the feathers of the wisp
that left you nowhere to be found
come to life on the wings of relief
face the tide for what lies underneath
retrace the footsteps of the ones who
took you half dead on the ground
with feathers of a different color
they took me as one of their own
and we sang our songs of success and failures
and compared them just to find out that we're not alone
I'm not a perfect man
I've made mistake but I'm willing to try
to find forgiveness in the eyes
of those I once held close to my heart
follow the feathers of the wisp
that left you nowhere to be found
retrace the footsteps of the ones who
took you half dead on the ground
praise the guardians who carried
you home through the dark
and leave behind what tried
to tear this family apart
with feathers of a different color
they took me as one of their own
and we sang our songs of success and failures
and compared them just to find out that we're not alone
I'm not a perfect man
I've made mistake but I'm willing to try
to find forgiveness in the eyes
of those I once held close to my heart
as she lies, she's talking in her sleep
the ashes are one with the ocean now
the wind carried them as far as they could go
but I will remember you forever
through the years of the sand and the snow
and your colors have faded to grey
and they're harder to see through the smoke
my colors have faded away
as did my memories of you
come to life on the wings of relief
face the tide for what lies underneath
as they rise, let the water recede
close your eyes, and let me wash out to sea
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I'm Here
01:46
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she never wanted her life to end like this
always cautious with how she carried on
betrayal clung to her heart like a vice
while her friends were just standing there laughing
and then she had realized that this was apart of the plan
her so called friends were the ones
who had buried her hopes and her dreams
how could she ever recover from this?
and I should've been there, when you needed me most
and I will never let her walk home alone again
I should've been there
my phone rang, I knew it was her
from the ringtone I gave her
she was hysterical and begged me
to come and pick her up
I said I'll be right there
she told me everything that happened
I told her those girls were never to be trusted
and then she cried even more
and buried her head into my chest
I wrapped my arms around her and said
I'm here
but this is not the first time
this has happened before
not just to her but it had surely
had happened to someone you know
never at one point was she asking for it
she never wanted this
she only wanted to be loved
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6. |
For You
02:42
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formless figures casting shadows on the walls
and silent screams echo through out the halls
and every time I close my eyes I see yours staring back at me
It's been four long years and where are you?
I wake in the morning glow next to you
ever changing, shape-shifting face
and I barely recognize you
your fall from grace fills this empty space in my bed
as I'm laid to rest by your ghost
all I wanted was your sympathy but I'll never get it
all I got was a collapsed heart threatened by the slightest touch
this constellation used to sing constantly
now only the stars around it are standing in silence
bowing their heads
my hands aren't shaking anymore
you're not who I thought you were
you're not the girl that I fell for
you're not who I thought you were
and everything you said, it didn't mean shit
my dear this is for you
a song I wrote in hopes you'd hear
I hope it haunts you in your sleep
in every way you hate and fear
I hate what you've become
or maybe you were like this all along
I hate what you've become
I hate my life and I hate this song
My dear I wrote this song for you
I hope you're proud of what you did
I hope it keeps you up at night
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7. |
Like Old Times
04:34
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the trees took this house
and the rain washed away
all the memories it held
the floorboards laid out
like cracked open ribs
where a heart had once dwelled
and it barely looks familiar anymore
and neither do I, I don't recognize
my reflection ever since you died
so here I am after so many years
the trees took this house
and the roots had held it down
the floor was covered in maple leaves
and countless washed away memories
his ashes were soaked into the ground
I tried to scream but there was no sound
Thomas can you still hear me I feel that I've lost my way
this house is no longer ours
my brothers ghost is hiding in my old room
as if it were a safe place to hide
but instead has become his tomb
my brothers still in my head
and he still haunts me every night
I live with only one regret
never having the chance to say goodbye
Thomas our family isn't mad
that you took your own life
we only wish that there was a way to go back
when you were still alive
just keep watching over us
and always keep us in mind
I'll be with you again someday
and it'll be just like old times
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8. |
Voices to Heal
04:13
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I'm sorry I live inside such a tortured mind
and nothing could save me, so I couldn't save us
there's drops of blood left on the piano where you had once played
and on the pillow next to me where you had once laid
it drowns out the familiar smell of you
and I know that it's my fault
so now I search for your voice through the static on the radio
because your song used to fill my ears like a rush of wind
oh, there's a place just for me in hell for the things I've done
and you are laying atop the dark clouds above
don't worry my darling, I will pay for my crimes
and on my way down, I'll look up at you as you're waving goodbye
this is the end
your silence is deafening
the guilt the I have carried for to long is lifted at last
if you could go back to the beginning
would you have still sang to me
or would you have left me for dead?
at this point it all sounds the same
so fuck it, we're all going to hell
and I will be waiting
together again, or perhaps it was meant to be
forever at rest, we will find comfort in the flames
I'm sorry I failed you. I'm sorry I killed us.
Please take my hand, and sing to me one last time
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this is the moment, anxiety has taken over me
to the point where I feel nothing
oh, I hope this doesn't hurt
and god if you're really there please just make it fast
and please do not judge me if I've walked a different path
and if my brother is next to you tell him I'm on my way
I hope he knows I think about him almost every day
and grandpa died when I was young, I didn't know him well
but I would like to see him one last time before I go to hell
because I'm not sure where I'll go, my vision is just a blur
and mom I'm sorry I failed you but don't bury me in the earth
just burn me in a box and scatter my ashes at sea
so I may know what it feels like to finally be at peace
because I'll have this body no more, all I'll have have left are memories
of growing up, and growing old, and falling in love (oh god, my love!)
everything goes from black to white as I'm floating towards the sky
so this is what it feels like
this is what it feels like to die
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10. |
Clouds in Contrast
02:38
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I'm lost in the bottom of a bottle
getting tired of trying to find a way out
I don't want to leave, so I'll just sit here alone
and wonder when the hell did all of the pain start
I'll crawl out of bed breathing fire
half stoned, half awake in the rain
the ceiling fan spinning circles in applause
"well done you're a failure with a black heart"
I'm so tired of waking up with a half mind
I'm so tired of waking up with a heavy heart
I'm so tired of waking up all alone
I'm so tired of denying this is all my fault
tell me what I did because I don't remember
and I never thought I would last until November
so I give up, and who gives a fuck
don't bother telling her I loved her
she won't believe me anyway
I can still hear your voice coming over the clouds
I'm trying to scream but I'm not as loud
you tell me to run when I'm crawling on the ground
I can still hear your voice coming over the clouds.
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